The main focus of the first section of MY HEALING CHOICE FOR ME is self-examination or self-analysis in order that you might discover the root of your problem.

Self examination is a key to your total recovery. Often, a person seeking recovery is in denial of their real problem.

This is because such problems as abortion, rape, incest, abuse, ritual abuse, addictions and other issues are often so painful to recall and shameful to talk about.

To be healed from something means that we have to say goodbye to it at some point. However, how can we say goodbye to something we fear saying hello to?

We provide you a list of each exercise so that you can work on these in the privacy of own home.

Carefully complete each exercise and worksheet, no matter how difficult or time-consuming or silly you think it may be.

The goal is to help you find the root of your problem. Should you feel you need more information or wish to address specific problems that you uncover during this self-examination process.

As you start the process, you can expect to face the pain of feeling the hurts of your past. This process is sort of like a doctor who has to work on an old scabbed-over wound.

When he gets past the scab, it hurts again. God’s recovery is like a spiritual/emotional/physical experience of heart surgery.

Jesus is the great surgeon, the Holy Spirit is the anesthesiologist there to comfort and help you, and the Word is the two-edged scalpel.

As God identifies the problem, He then opens your wound to be able to excise the problem.

Opening up to reveal our hidden, shameful past is most frightening. But, when heart surgery is over, you feel new again.

Don’t fear God’s HOPE AND HELP! He is not going to harm you.



Look at this image of a tree. Notice the extensive root system.
The tree is like your life. Beneath the surface of your life, there are roots that go back to your childhood.

Every root has a cause and a purpose for being there. As long as the root is alive, it has an impact on your life.

The key to recovery is to get to beneath the surface of your life so that you can see the relationship between the root issues in your life that today make you feel the way you do.

Imagine your life is like a garden. It’s been through a lot. Storms, weeds, people discarding trash.

Old cans have been kicked into your garden. The worms have started eating away at the decaying leaves around the base.

Because your garden has been left unworked and undernourished for a long period of time, it has become weeded over.

All the good flowers have been choked out. The ground would become parched, cracked and dry.

Thorns and vines have wrapped around everything. There is no way a new rose is going to bloom in your garden. Does this describe you?

Think about it.
How would you restore that old garden back to life?

First, you would have to dig up all the weeds (aka – all the ideas, choices that have grown wild in our life that are choking out our happiness), cut down all the vines (aka – habits, people that have attached to you that are harmful to you), and destroy all the root systems (aka – fundamental beliefs) that could be harmful to the new growth. T

he fallow (infertile, hardened, cracked) ground would be turned over and mulched. Water would be added to nourish the ground.

New seeds would be planted and, in time, a new crop of flowers would grow once again.

The goal of this recovery process is that you will begin to bear good fruit and shine from within.

The process of emotional/spiritual recovery is just like the garden’s process.

Jeremiah 1:10 outlines a practical six-step process that we can use for dealing with our emotional hurts, broken feelings, and past issues:







The first section involves ‘breaking up the fallow ground of your heart.

It is not comfortable to look inside ourselves to see where we have failed or how we have been used, abused, rejected, or abandoned.

However, as with preparing the soil for fertile growth, the hardened, scarred, fallow human heart must be pierced with the light of God’s Word and ever-present Holy Spirit. Such a digging up process is done to dispel the darkness within your heart and to loosen the parched heart to become ready to receive God’s Word. This Word will wash you clean and bring you peace and hope everlasting.

While this process may feel threatening or uncomfortable, please know that it is essential for the cleansing of your wounded heart.

If you have reservations about any segment or exercise described, talk to Ken Freeman privately. It is important you feel safe in completing this course.

You are likely to have many fears about taking this course: fears of being able to handle your emotions as you complete the process. In just a moment, you will have an opportunity to address your fears.


Why should I go back and dig up these old feelings that have been buried for so long?

Would it not be better simply to go on with my life and forget about my past?’

Many times well meaning Christians will tell you that you do not need to go back and ‘dig up’ the past.

We have all had people tell us, ‘Just forgive and forget,’ ‘Put it under the blood and go on with your life,’ or ‘You just need to grow in the grace of the Lord.’

While this is good advice, we must realize we cannot take a simplistic approach to a lifetime of pain and hurt.

So much of what happened to us in childhood is intricately woven into who we are today.

It will be a necessary part of your restoration to recall the painful memories and acknowledge the repressed emotions from your past abuse.

While this is usually a difficult thing to do, remember that God is with you and will give you the strength you need to get through.

Before your healing can be complete there must be forgiveness, and before there can be forgiveness, you must know the areas of your life’s past and present, where the forgiveness needs to be appropriate.

There is a natural human desire to avoid or run away from our feelings.

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